Weeping in the Garden...

Well here I am planting another blog post this month. I had not intended on doing so, but I have something on my heart that I want to share with my readers. As one of my friends told me, not to be concerned what others might think, as that could block the creative process. So, I'm taking their advice and going full steam ahead. 

As some of you know I had a brain tumor removed from my right frontal lobe, That right there, can cause me to become more emotional at times. I can be laughing one moment and then see or hear something touching and wham, just like that I'm brought to tears. Frontal lobe syndrome was explained to me, as you can become angry or brought to tears more easily. I was told to embrace it. WOW! It's actually caused by trauma to the brain. It's considered an acquired brain injury. 

The past couple of weeks have been difficult in that I've been experiencing bouts of frontal lobe syndrome (FLS). I know it's completely normal and we have even been talking about it on some of the brain tumor groups on Facebook. I actually want to share a blog post that I composed back in 2015, that I think will help you understand what it is like to live with frontal lobe syndrome (FLS). Below is the link to that blog post. Trevor introduces it, but the rest is in my own words. It was difficult to write, but I hope it helps, if you find yourself weeping in your garden. It can become overwhelming sifting through the weeds, as I have been for the past several months. I think it finally got the best of me.

https://brendasbrainstormandtrevor.blogspot.com/2017/05/a-cathartic-tale_7.html

I've come to the conclusion that trying to fight the tears is a losing battle I will never win. I was told once by another wise friend, to not fight my tears and allow myself to emote. However, there has to be that healthy balance and not to remain in the valley too long. 

Life can be hard at times and I've found that having good friends who listen and care, is very comforting. I have a small circle of friends, who I value and appreciate so much. I only hope, I've been that same kind of friend to them. In our gardens of life, sometimes the weeds become too high to be able to see what matters most. 

I want to assure you that it's okay to weep in your garden, if you find life too overwhelming. We need to be able to evaluate what's in our gardens and figure out how to make them nourish and cause that growth which is vital. Growth can be painful, but in the long run you will be better for it. This is all figurative, but as a visual person such as myself, I hope you will understand what I'm trying to convey. 

I would like to share a poem with you that I composed last year. The next 2 months I will not be sharing poetry, as there will be other items that will be included with those planted blog posts. Thank you for allowing me to share my heart with you. Please feel free to share your experiences or if you have any questions, please feel free to reach out to me. 

~Brenda~ ❤️