Emptiness in the Garden...

I hadn't planned to plant a blog post because lately, I haven't felt like there was anything of substance to share. It's funny how life can throw you a curve ball. Let me explain in the next paragraph.

I was listening to Dionne Warwick singing 'Heartbreaker' on YouTube, when I received the text message that would take the wind out of my sails. 

I was informed that my friend and kindred spirit had passed away on November 19th from complications of her recent surgery. I knew she had had this surgery and we messaged one another a few days after. I thought something was off, because it wasn't like her not to keep in contact. She would call on the weekends and we would chat a bit. They weren't really long conversations, but meaningful. 

I felt like something bad was about to happen. I had experienced this same feeling when my sister ended up passing away from colon cancer over 20 years ago. You know when something is off. 

I sent my friend a text message on her birthday, which was January 5th. I called her and left a message, but no response. This was not normal and I was starting to get concerned. I sent her another text message asking if she was okay. No, because she had passed away almost 2 months ago. 

I feel that maybe what I'm about to share is more for me, than my readers. I wrote this in my journal this morning and it occurred to me, that maybe this is what I need to share with you as well. 

The passing of my friend has had a big impact on my life. Having had a kindred spirit - my only one is leaving a huge void. We as brain Injury survivors - forged a different path in dealing with our challenges. My friend excelled in many aspects. She did so much for the brain injury community. Now I have no one to talk about that in the real world, because if you haven't been through it or experienced it - you truly do not understand. 

I sustained an acquired brain injury - nonetheless - still a brain injury. I don't always handle situations or friendships like I should. This is something that my friend also struggled with. We would talk about this and try to encourage one another. She was truly my kindred spirit. Her path of pain and suffering has ended. May she rest in peace. I will always be a better person, for having had you in my life, these past 16+ years. 

💔 Brenda 




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